The same email I was
reading from past almost an hour and try to decode the inherent
meaning out of it though felt infested and sleepy at the same time.
I thought of checking the time because being the next day as working I need to
sleep early too. The small advantage I have at my side that I know even if I
manage to take 3-4 hrs sleep I'm good to go for tomorrow busy day at work.
Yup..office work days are busy as hell these days and sadly December is going
like Disastember for many reasons some at my control and obviously some are
just beyond !
Its 20 mins past 1 when
randomly I saw the lower right corner of the screen, my
bluetooth enable headset is paired with my hTC
and Mettalica - "Nothing Else matter" played for
the 5th time is row, by mistake I put it on loop, but seems like its the most apt
song from the entire playlist has been chosen by default. Frankly
speaking though not understanding the word - by - word meaning but looked like
the music of this song is for eternity. Everyone who has at least a
little interest in firang songs; initially started just for
style; this and "Summer of '69" is the default choices. But when the
sixth time it played, I paused the song and googled the lyrics; read the lyrics
then read the mail again.
I have
been staring in the blank restlessly for couple of minutes now, wondering what
I am supposed to write in response before hitting the send button today. I finally drafted a small response
which I had been avoiding for a while now however one does succumb to the
natural path of progression and that is what I did too. It made a lot to
concentrate on. Not just to complaining about the happenings. Ultimately this
has to be done if not now then sometime later. I am at peace after a very
long time so much so that the outcomes doesn't matter to me
anymore. No matter whom I talk to, at the back of my mind all I can
think of is what should be the next step. All the vivid memories flashed once
again. It all keeps cluttering my mind all the time! And then there are
usual expectations to excel and manage things at best of my skills. I have
absolutely no time at all for me anymore to render the destinations. I know
I still have a long way to go, a very long way, perhaps most of the journey
down the line would be cold, fearful though better, I guess, however you
do need to climb your way up and not all can cope the breathlessness.
In the
other tab of the same browser I was about to read the some other techy stuffs,
felt like I just tried to make a cliché where Life has shaping up like a
snowflake schema where our dimensions are now more normalized.
Changes that can be tracked and the proper history has been maintained more
like a Slowly Changing Dimensions - Type 2.
PS:à After the last post one of my friend asked to me change the title of the blog, because seems like it sounds more similar to big L, thought of many but zeroed on this one. I hope this make a better reflections of the my thought and makes the similar mirage.
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